Toxic Personalities

Quick Miami rundown:
The following people are to be avoided at all costs:
1) People who compliment one person by insulting another. “Hey…HEY…most girls I know are STUPID…but YOU….” (props to Suarez for having a lunatic friend who actually pulls this shit on women in clubs).
2) People who blurt out vivid details of your personal life in a drunken SARAH stupor.
3) People who point out gleefully that your step-sister is not your sister, nor is she family, then act like they didn’t do anything wrong when you call them on their stupidity.
4) People (girls) who flirt like crazy with you despite the fact that they have boyfriends, then get all mad at you when you cross some invisible line with them that only they can see but you can’t. “You can kiss me on the lips but touch my ass BACK OFF!!!”
5) People (Ana) who rip on you endlessly, but when you do it back to them, they get all pissy and offended. If you can’t take it, don’t dish it out. Beeyatch.

More to follow…

Love Letter

i love you. there, i've said it. i love the way i love you. i love the way i'd do anything for you. i love the way you'd do stuff for me. i love the mess that i've got myself into. i love the fact that we are so different that it always takes a lot of effort for us to click. I love the way you can behave in wlovever manner you like in front of me. I love the way you disrespect me with all the hitting and swearing. i love it when you always talk about the boy from hell, again and again. I love the fact that wlovever you do, I'd always say"it's alrite coz I love you". I love the situation that we're in. I love it coz I have to go home and leave you here. I love it coz I have to wait for you for years and years to come. I love the fact that we'll get into more and more arguments in the future. I love the fact that even though we argue and tear ourselves apart, we always make-up and pretend it's all gonna be alrite. I love the way I always make you sad. I love the stuff i did to you; the thing that you'll never forgive me for. I love the times when ego gets the better of both of us. I love the way you portray yourself in your blog; everytime you're pissed off at me you tell the whole world about it. I love the fact that not one single entry in your blog blames yourself for wlovever things that go wrong in your life. I love the fact that I never tell anyone, ever, when I'm pissed of with you. I love the fact that everyone thinks I'm the one that's madly in love with you. I love the fact that ppl think that I'm your slave. I love it even more coz it's all true; I am your slave coz I never have the guts to say no to you. I love the way you always have your way with me. I love the way I feel so happy when you're with me, knowing that it'll never last. I love the fact that it's all just a dream and someday I'll have to wake up from all of this. I love myself coz when you read this, we'll definitely have another argument. I love the way I always get blamed even when i'm right. i love the way i say sorry just to prevent a fight. I love myself coz i know i am such a jerk sometimes. I love the fact that now I've written all this, I don't have the guts send it to you. Now i love myself coz i know i wrote all this just because i'm angry. I love myself for being emotional with you. I love it when emotions cloud my judgment. I love you coz this rarely happens in my life; except because of you. I love myself coz I know i'll regret writing this. I love myself coz after I've read what i've written, i know that i don't love you anymore.

from that someone I luv

how was school?...worst day of my life, what do you think?

today really diiiiiiiid suck. this week is the week of all the "first tests." and not to be cocky or anything, but i usually rock the first tests, it's keeping up the grade that causes problems later on. BUT NO! i am not doing well on my tests so far. french, i used to ace like a pro, now i can't even conjugate my verbs correctly! >:O and today's calc test was soooooooo depressing! i just know it will suck. the non-calculator part was...TERRIBLE! calculator will hopefully raise the despicable grade up. almost makes me look forward to an econ test because i actually completely know what's going on. and english objective tests are later..like i don't always fail those every year ALREADY. ugh. how the hell am i supposed to raise like all my grades, write my 38972356845 college app essays, and study for sat2s?! HUH?!

whatever. all the stress will pass eventually (like in FEBRUARY)..so it's not that bad, i just hope i can keep my grades up :( colleges still see my 1st semester grades and i am not going to start sucking now!